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My mind is feeling blurry right now. My thoughts feel like they're trying to run through a neck-high swamp of thick mud because of the fear of failure that I feel right now. I don't want to fail. I want to succeed. I don't want to loose my job. I want to keep it. I don't want to not be able to pay rent. I want to pay rent. I want to. I want to. I just want to. I have no clue where this is going, but here we go.