I think I've finally found a way to define my problem

I've finally found a way to define my current problem. Basically, I've restricted my brain from doing anything freely (at least most of the time). I've gotten some rope, wrapped it around my brain several times, and put the rope in the grasp of some part of me that pulls whenever my mind starts wandering, which gives me a mental shock of sorts and keeps my brain from moving freely. As a result, my thoughts move sluggishly a lot of the time, and it's very hard to get invested in any task.