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I am very scared right now. I really really love being able to type my thoughts. I love the smoothness of my fingers as they glide along the keyboard. It gives me a feeling that it's worth staying here. I don't know how to put it, but there are thousands if not hundreds of thousands of things that I really love about the fingers. There is a thing that people like to call movement that really fills your heart with awesomeness. I don't know how to describe it, but I do know that there are things in this world that are difficult to explain. I don't know how to explain them, but they do exist, and since they exist, they should at least be filled with the most terrifying thoughts known to man. I don't know what I'm saying. I want to be free from worrry.

Help me

You want to know how I feel right now?

In short, I feel worried. I feel so worried that my hands are shaking, making it difficult to type this bunch of sentences that you are now reading. I feel really worried. I really don't want to feel worried though, but I don't know how to stop. I guess the best way to stop being worried would be to stop looking toward the future as something that is the most awful thing in the world and start looking at what I can do now in the present. I really don't want to talk about the reason that I'm worried, but I'm going to do so anyways because I feel that I need to.