Battlefield

Right now my brain feels split in half, like there are two armies, both battling to the death, trying to win power over my inspiration. They don't want to compromise, nor does either one want to give up, so they fight constantly. I know which one of them I'm rooting for, but it seems like the control over the final verdict is either out of my hands or based purely upon long distance strategies that I initiate

This battle has been going on forever. Some days it seems like it's coming to a close, but so far it's only ever come really close to such a close, and never actually reached it. It is, on an overall scale lessening to a degree, but it's doing so so slowly that I am beginning to feel sick, sick and tired of not being able to think straight or to read stories or to do anything fun.

I'm tired of this battle, and I want it to stop. I don't like thinking of it as a battle, but with the way I feel, I don't know what else to call it. Damn, I don't know what else to say.

I just want this battle to actually end. I really do.